Tuesday morning and I am sitting in a small cottage on Tomales Bay, looking out tall glass French doors onto the bay, watching the rain and the ducks. If this was some other location I would be saying to myself "this is so beautiful, I could live here!" But having already done that, I now know better. Today I am a visitor to Inverness, here to run a few errands and see to a couple of appointments.
In my current introspective frame of mind, I can see that I did not make use of the West Marin community as well as others have. I came here married and on a part-time basis. Once that was over I reverted to my somewhat hermit ways and chose not to extend myself into that community. I have always been a bit of a recluse, I admit it. I am not a joiner and prefer small gatherings to large events. In other words, in a small town I was perhaps my own worst enemy.
There are no regrets, of course, because even if I had built up a huge family of friends and acquaintances, I still wouldn't have a job here and thus no income. Living out here would have still been a poor option. But I can still visit and enjoy the scenery. Today is a beautiful day. More to follow.
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